Showing posts with label Smoking. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Smoking. Show all posts

Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Brooke Fraser Therapy




Brooke Fraser - Therapy

Brooke Fraser is an artist who has done some of my songs. Mostly from her album what to do with daylight.

I left a couple of messages on her instagram calling her a murderer through hate trying to get these songs exposed. I live in absolute poverty starving a lot of the time.

Brooke Fraser.
I was really just trying to get some money. It's all about the money.

I need somewhere to live. I need to support my smoking and marijuana habits. I need food.

I'd be happy with $600 a week and owning my own house.

I think i've earned it.

O yeah I started smoking again. I did 5 years and 4 months without a single puff. Then I had one. It's so much harder to give up this time. I had the mindset before to give up where I don't this time.

Anyway that's bad news about the smoking. I can't afford it but still manage it somehow.

I'll give up again one day.



Brooke Fraser - Sound of Silence.

Discovered this somehow after listening to Therapy. Not a bad cover. Brings to memory disturbeds cover for some reason. Also sound of cylons.

Darcy Lee
Leeda.

Friday, December 30, 2016

Closer Boyce Avenue ft Sarah Hyland cover



Boyce Avenue.

Closer - The Chainsmokers ft. Halsey (Boyce Avenue ft. Sarah Hyland cover)

Like this cover better than the original.




The Chainsmokers - Closer (Lyric) ft. Halsey

This is the original, it has nearly a billion views. Adding this post to Music the top category.

Remember Virtual Reality the Matrix where the picture is in your head tech is going to hit very soon. They can read your mind. You have been warned right here.

Darcy Lee
Leeda
The Chainsmokers.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

FAQ, Plans and Goals.

These are the days leading upto the move from my current house of 5 years 8 months to a new house.

I lose alot of ease of access to shops like fish and chips, supermarket, kfc, service station. These are all just across the road at the moment. My new house is alot further away. My new house is nicer though. It's about the same size as my current house but the interior is nicer and there is a fire place to keep warm and save using the electrical bill.

I have a flat tyre on my 50cc scooter at the moment. The rear needs pretty much a whole new tyre. It's pretty bald. Now it's flat. And there wouldn't be much point fixing it without replacing it. I don't use the scooter much at the moment but in the future it's going to be a lifeline. I hope I have good luck with the bike. I would much prefer a car but they are so much more expensive and really you need to be working to afford the running costs.

So scooter = pack mule for groceries in future, i'll need the scooter which has a compartment on it plus probably a school bag to carry all of my groceries. Joy and fun.

Nothing else exciting has been happening to me.

I'm jealous of people with educations. They can get awesome jobs. I can't even get supermarket work. They're also smart and do smart stuff. I ain't so bright.

I would like to get some sort of polytech education in computers if i'm ever able and i'm going to return to the work force. That would give me a foot in the door. But it's a long hard struggle from here where I am living in hell.

That's just one road. Rockstar is another road. No.

It's been nearly 10 months since i've had a cigarette. That's one thing. A good accomplishment.

I need some goals and plans for this web page. I dream all the time and so far the plan being is to get a freehold house and live off my government benefit while making an income preferably from home on the Internet that doesn't get my benefit docked ie under $100 dollars and having maximum free time and money to do stuff or just being outright rich.

The plan since the beginning and inception of this website has always been to earn money through donations and advertising. So far this hasn't worked. I've earned a total of $36 dollars so far in advertising. With donations and people giving me money i've earned zero dollars.

I'm planning on hopefully never working again. But maybe i'll have to work part time if I ever want to get any where financially. The internet is practically my only hope at the moment of making enough money for a house and the hope is pretty grim. This is turning out like a FAQ post.

So my goal and plan is to get a freehold house by making lots of money through the internet. This is more like a dream than a goal or plan I guess as my chances aren't very good. I've been trying for 5 years in a relatively lazy style and I haven't gotten anywhere. I don't have any catch or hook at the moment.

I do just have words. There's Virtual Reality Pictures in your head technology happening around the world right at this moment. And also somewhere exists a phone call of me yelling war 2 days before the 9/11 terrorist attacks in America live on talkback radio. The phone call I could post on You Tube and then have a copy of it selling for $5-10 dollars on Itunes. These are a couple of the things i've been going on about. So I believe I can make some money with these topics.

Thats it from me for now.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Mad Rambles. Cigarettes, For People Who Smoke, Wow and House Dreams.

Haven't been playing World of Warcraft much lately. There isn't much to do if your not raiding. I'm bored with the auction house, I have 135,000 gold. Healing is a challenge. A friend of mine has been playing my mage for me and my mage is now more geared than my druid. Also my friend joined a pretty advanced guild and got walked through Blackwing Descent the first four bosses anyway so my mage is also further raid progressed than my druid. My druid doesn't even have any raid kills.

What else has been going on in my life, not much. I'm still very poor cash money wise. I just got a pay rise of $3.20 NZ dollars a week thank you New Zealand government. That puts me on $308.38 per week NZ dollars in the hand. But there's nothing left over once i've paid all the bills like rent, phone, Internet, electricity, bought petrol and food. Sigh No money left to buy additional stuff that's needed.

So today the 20th of April 2011 is like exactly 7 months since I gave up smoking to the day.

Some things I could suggest that might help but not really. You need something to occupy yourself and pass time for the first couple few days. I used World of Warcraft alot. I just played and passed time. Maybe start playing computer games maybe PS3 or Xbox 360. Getting rid of all tobacco and related stuff is a good idea. Also try and run out of tobacco at night time just before you goto bed so you get the whole night to sleep and be free from cigaretters for at least 8 hours initially before waking up. You will get cravings but you have to resist them this is where occupying yourself comes in.

They say nicotine gum or patches can help with the cravings. I guess you have to be aware that you will get cravings or thoughts about cigarettes but being occupied with things can help them to pass quickly. You have to be determined and have a lot of guts.

Another thing is not being around others who smoke. Often others will offer you cigarettes sometimes going out of there way to make sure you smoke. Also seeing others smoke can make you wonder what it would be like. A temptation.

I'm watching Bastion of Twilight at the moment on World of Warcraft. My friend is playing my mage and i'm using his laptop on Wifi with the batteries. Guess what. The battery died just then and it's now a couple of hours later and i'm back on the desktop and my friend has gone.

My friend got to the last boss of Bastion of Twilight and then got switched out. Not that anyones interested in that.

I was just typing this out on his laptop for something to do. I've truly run out of things to post about. I've asked for money lots on this website but that's failed. No-ones interested in giving me money.

Saying that i've made about $33 dollars US on the google ads u see on this page. Amazing yes. Well the thing is thats over nearly 5 years of having them. Another thing is you don't get paid out until you reach $100 dollars. It's in my interests that people click the ads but mostly the ads are for something terrabad so don't get clicked. Not that I have much traffic anyway. It's all about traffic. The more people you have visiting your site the better you do. So at the current rate I should get a payout from google ads within another 10 years. Lol

I've written about this before but truly I have nothing new to write about. What else can I write about? I'm going through Sisters of Mercy on YouTube at the moment listening to different songs of theres. Someone I knew had there cd a long time ago you should check out Temple of Love by them if you haven't heard it.

Ok i have nothing to write about now. I wish I had more money. Mostly I want a house so I can be somewhere more permanent and be even more retired and have more money because your not paying rent because you own the house. There's still bills like insurance and rates but these are cheaper than paying rent. I dream of owning my own house and not having a mortgage. A nice modern brand new house thats large. House prices are so expensive now that a mortgage is out of the question for me.

It's about (just guessing) $200,000 NZ dollars to buy the cheapest house in the town I live in. That's not in a very nice area and that's not brand new.

Anyway my dream of a house is nearly impossible in today's modern world. In the mean time I still have to deal with a mouse infestation in my current house.

I wish I could afford to move but if I do all my costs will go up and I will have to borrow for bond and weeks in advance which I will have to pay back reducing how much money I have for upto a year. I don't quite feel well or motivated enough to get a job yet. I think i'm allowed to earn upto $80 dollars NZ per week without it affecting my benefit income.

Moving would be a pain unless I found the ideal location. At the moment the supermarket is right across the road from where I live and there are other shops just down the road a little as well. But yeah the supermarket is so useful being able to just run across the road and do your grocery shopping. It would be a lot harder if I had to use my 50cc scooter to do the traveling inbetween home and the supermarket.

Ok so thats me for tonight. The photo is a Northern Mockingbird or Mimus Polyglottos. The other photo is of a random house. Donate by clicking the paypal button.

Darcy Lee

Friday, November 19, 2010

Giving Up Smoking.

I stopped smoking on the 20th of September 2010. This was the fourth time this year that I had tried to give up. The first time time I did 11 days. The second time I did 30 Days. And the third time 32 Days. This time i'm sitting on about 60 days. Also this means that i haven't smoked for 4 months total out of 2010.

60 days is ok. I mean i'm wondering a little right now what a cigarette would be like. But I can so far seem to handle not actually smoking one.

I imagine if I started again it would be ever so hard to stop yet once more and that 60 days would be wasted.

One thing I think about is that things will change. The longer I go without one I think the desire should go away and i'll become less interested. My thoughts about cigarettes will change. It's like counting the days until it's so far that it's real hard to count and counting doesn't matter so much i guess.

I'm always guessing.

Cya Later.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

26 Days. Third Attempt. Quiting Smoking.

It's been 26 Days since I last had a smoke. Yay for me.

Advice for smokers trying to quit. Um. Try zyban. It's a pill u take or see your doctor and ask him to recommend a smoking pill.

This time I didn't really use zyban. One thing u should do is get rid of all your tobacco. Have none around. That includes friends with tobacco. Have no contact with tobacco at all.

I don't know how I was able to resist the temptation. It's like i had a voice or thought go off like "have a cigarette" and I was able to ignore it and it wasn't to painful and wasn't in control of me.

Having something to occupy yourself could help. I played alot of World of Warcraft. I used it as a crutch. And maybe some sort of reward system could help. Like rewarding yourself for how long a period of time you can go for without a cigarette.

I still count the days. So i'm still hanging out. Reading this won't really help you give up smoking but you should keep trying. I'll try think of some things.

I did find when i had a friend come round who smokes and my thinking was driving me crazy to have a cigarette that nicotine gum helped. It took a little while to kick in but it soon quietened everything down.

In NZ u can get nicotine gum really easy through some quitline. So i'm sure it will be easy to get in other countries hopefully. I found my first few pieces were completely digusting. It burnt. But it began tasting quite nice when i came back to it a few weeks later. It did help. But I have stopped using it as well though i might still for real tough times.

SO thats me 26 days. I'll keep writing. 23 of May I stopped. Had my last cigarette b4 I went to bed and that was me the next morning.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Smoking. Donations.

Day 12 for me without a cigarette. Going to take a long time before i'm actually clear me thinks. Don't know what else to add. I'm pretty tired of asking for money over the internet and not getting any.

I'm going to keep asking though. LOL. It's been 4 years and I haven't got one donation.

Reasons You Should Donate To Me.

#1. I'm poor.
#2. I don't own a house. I rent.
#3. I've seen 5 cockroaches in the last 2 months in my house.
#4. Big Ones.
#5. My house has Drafts. Lots of air. It's cold. Damp.
#6. I'm not funny.
#7. No ones ever donated before. Be the first.


Ok. So donate even a dollar.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Quitting Smoking.

So I heard about a drug that you could get prescribed through a doctor that helps you give up smoking. It's called Zyban. It cost me $3 dollars for the prescription plus the doctors fee of about $40.

So far, I got it in January, I gave up for 11 days, the first time in 16 years, then started again, then I quit again for 32 days, then started again, and now i've quit again and i'm upto day 8.

It's still a struggle not smoking. I think about it often at the moment. I didn't use the drug much this time just took a few doses b4 i quit and then quit and stopped taking it. I am using nicotine lozenges. I have to this time beat my record of first 11 days and then 32 days.

At the moment a 30 gram of tobacco in New Zealand costs NZ $25.50.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Stopping Smoking. Ceasing Smoking. Quiting Smoking. Giving up Smoking.

Hello and welcome again. So in my current budget of $261 NZ per week I spend about $50 nz dollars per week on smoking. I thought I should blog here again to help stop smoking.

So I don't know how i'm going to do it. I have a fear that I will smoke all my life. It's how I see my future. Smoking is controling me. Why do I smoke? I think I enjoy it but there are side effects. Some of the side effects make me want to quit. Ok ill make a list of reasons to quit but it proberly wont be very long.

1. Money. $50 dollars per week for me I spend on smoking. This money could help improve my life alot. The one thing I would get would be Sky TV at around $18 per week. Alot of money left over for whatever proberly eat more takeout food to.

2. Health. Maybe i'm not really understanding the damage smoking can do? I think I don't understand the damage or else I do understand and it's not a big enough motivator. I cough from smoking and am raspy sometimes. My chest was hurting for a while to. I don't exercise. I don't get much sun either. I'm still smoking with all the health things about smoking.

3. Time. I would have more time.

4. I don't know what else at the moment.

These are all the reasons I can think of. It hasn't helped me to write them. I actually don't know how to start at stopping smoking. Like the last cigarette. I have to get rid of all the smokes around I think because they will be to tempting. I'm always thinking this and always pretty much have tobacco so I don't know, I don't stop.

So thats all I can think of to stop smoking. Damn it hasn't helped writing this. I'll try writing some more about smoking to connect to this post and try and build something, at a later time when i'm feeling different.

Monday, May 7, 2007

Improving My Life. Smoking. Making Money. 50 Inch 3 LCD TV.

At the moment I smoke cigarettes. I've smoked now for about 13 years, since the age of 16. Many people i've found use their blogs to keep track of progress in their lives and tell us about daily events and things that happen, everything really. The date is the Sixth of May 07 so by mentioning smoking here i'm hoping that I can possibly chart the progress on my smoking habit as well.

Money can improve my life, as it would improve almost anyones. If I give up smoking i'll save a minimum of NZ $33.39 dollars a week. This blog I hope will be multipurpose and contain everything I can think of, perhaps not just one particular theme, if there is a theme it's about trying to make money. So by giving up smoking i'll have money to divert to other areas which would be far more beneficial than buying cigarettes. My efforts at the at the moment are basically thinking about not smoking alot and trying to build something that will get me off them er by thinking. At the moment I can't even start only lasting at the longest a few hours. I always manage to get cigarettes, so i'm just beginning to deal with how I seek them. I can't think of a better word at the moment as I don't know something similar but the word is progression. I'm trying progress my mind to stop smoking.

I'm living on a Government benefit at the moment so giving up smoking I will further progress my life and how much money I have available as well. Time is important for giving up. I guess just by writing about smoking here that it will help. Thats what i'm doing I think. I'll write random thoughts about smoking in articles I write here every now and then. The more I concentrate on it and the more I throw at it I hope will eventually achieve the goal of not smoking.

I'm trying to optimize everything in my life and get as much as I can out of what I have. The extra money I will have from not smoking makes the goal worthy, like making money, not to mention possibly extra energy and fitness I will have. I am really stuck with it though. I can only forecast many more years of smoking at my current rate of progress. I'll do what I can here on this blog to help stop smoking. At the moment I feel it's a long way off from me not smoking but i'll keep at it that's all I can do.

I own, my possessions are computer with broadband, telephone number, stereo, video, TV, washing machine, fridge, couch, bed, alarm clock, cell phone number. All at good level of condition and not outdated much. That all cost about $2000 NZ dollars. I pay rent for my house.

House, scooter, here is a photo of a Sony 50 Inch 3 LCD Bravia TV for NZ $2699 dollars for my wishlist. I think i'll add a wishlist down the side of this blog and only mention it occasionally ticking off items overtime when I achieve them instead of writing lots of different posts about it.


Model #KF50E200A Sony