Showing posts with label Agony. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Agony. Show all posts

Monday, August 31, 2015

Thousand Foot Krutch You Move To This Phenomenon.




Thousand Foot Krutch - You Move To This Phenomenon.

Been listening to this for the last couple days. Bit bored of it now buts it's still pretty cool and I like it. It's also one of my songs. The line "You Move To This Phenomenon" is me speaking. I was speaking about Jesus.

Don't know about Jesus anymore. I've done nothing but suffer and be tortured by other humans. All because of these songs. Before 2001 it was worse. I don't understand how humans can be so evil. None of the bible ever comes true. O death where is thy sting. Well death still survives to this day. People get tortured. Pain thrives. God does nothing.

God when are you going to change this world into something good. At the moment it's only evil. There is only suffering.

I'm tortured daily by humans. They mind control me with technology. They lord it over me. They won't give me any money to provide some comfort. They keep my phone call a secret.

The are vain and think ever so highly of themselves.

The bible does nothing though. Neither do Christians. No Christian believes my story so no action is taken.

I want some comfort.

I want some money.

I want to stop being mind controlled. I want the people behind it to be judged by the public for what they do. They mind control everyone. The laws they make put them above us.

They keep it secret.

No one believes.

God you suck. God your evil. You do nothing.

Jesus you suck. Your death which you could've avoided did nothing but give them something to mind control me with.

Religion sucks. It doesn't work. The cross has no power. Jesus has no power and is dead.

I need to die.

Jesus you are a liar.

2000 years of human suffering makes me believe Jesus is a liar. But to come to this conclusion yourself then you must suffer for like at least 5 years of the worst suffering imaginable.

Jesus doesn't save.

Jesus is evil. Jesus doesn't care.

Jesus teachings are evil. They are undecipherable. They provide no comfort in your pain. They only lead to madness.

The whole bible is a book of madness.

God is evil but more than likely doesn't exist.

What else can I say about God? Even right now the usual things that come up in my eyesight are coming up right now. These are mind control items. I am being mind controlled right now.

Nobody believes in this tech.

I hate God.

God has done no good in my life.

God is not good. God is not real. There are only evil humans like Hitler with no humans to oppose the evil. The evil goes unchecked.

I have for the last 17 years been tortured by humans. Even longer than that. They have mind controlled me all my life.

No Christian will accept me. They don't believe my words. My words about the tech and songs are truth. Yet no one acknowledges me.

God is not real. God is evil.

Christians are evil. They don't believe in their God. If they did they would believe me.

I hate God.

I hate Christians.

Not one person has believed me.

God does nothing. Nobody can hear his voice. In the face of absolute suffering for years on end God did nothing.

God your evil. You don't prove me wrong.

God show your face you coward. Stop hiding.

There are no weapons the average man has against the evil in the world. If your going to be tortured you will be tortured. No God will stop it.

When will I stop being tortured. When will I be believed. When will these men and women who have practiced mind control on me be brought to justice. Do you think they believe in your God?

They know there isn't a god. Their behavior exhibits what they believe. They torture people for fun

I am tortured for sport and fun.

You don't believe me. So they can carry on with out fear.

I need the people who do this to me to be punished.

Their laws can't possibly hold up under reality. If the people knew about them.

They break international war rules about torture.

I am a torture victim.

I have no scars and nobody believes me. Yet I am tortured by other men daily.

I believe the theory of God is evil and he doesn't exist.

But as long as men can do things in secret their will always be wrongs.

The darkness that these cockroaches hide in needs to be brought to the world

The world needs to know about this tech. This so others aren't tortured by it.

They are worse than Hitler these people. They are hardcore fascists. Nazis in true blood. Only armed with modern tech.

It is a war.

I am tortured as a prisoner.

I have done nothing wrong.

These people have made all the choices and decisions.

I asked for money everyday they watched me. I am destitute and poor.

These people have no heart. They have no mercy. They have given themselves to the way of evil.

They enjoy evil more than good. They practice it to get better at it.

I am very distressed at the moment.

God is no help. There is no help for me.

I want my freedom that is my right.

I want my rights that every human should have. The right not to be mind controlled and tortured.

These people think so highly of themselves. They call themselves God.

They treat everyone as underneath and below them.

They are not afraid. They have no fear.

So you Christian. When are you going to believe me.

I don't believe in your evil God anymore. He is evil. I have now endured more than Christ did  for a much longer period of time. Chirsts' suffering was over in a matter of hours. Mine went on at max level for 10 years. Then it stopped for like 6 months then the humans started right back at it. Now I have all new wounds.

All humans are evil.

I want my rights. I want the law to do me justice. They are breaking the law and they are from the Govt. Nobody cares about me.

I don't even have one comment on my website after like 8 years.

No body loves me.

To love me is to believe what I say.

From experience I can only go by. My experience is God never speaks to you. I haven't heard his voice. God doesn't fight for you. From experience God doesn't exist.

Men are evil. Men know that God doesn't exist and take advantage of  men that believe in God.

Why should I be tortured. I am innocent. I've done nothing criminal. They torture me now for pleasure.

They fail to understand pain as they have never known it.

I want the torture to stop.

When will the torture stop.

They make me angry. They mock and tease me with the tech.

They even can control what I type and make me speak out loud what and as I type.

They can see what I see hear what I hear. Who gave them permission.

We didn't. We make the laws. Not them.

They can't make a law that make me their slave.

I am a slave under law though.

They keep me as a slave. They treat me badly. Jesus is evil

I can't say how much I hate Jesus for all the suffering he has brought into my life.

Jesus you are not good. God you are not good either.

There is no one good. Not One.

These people need to have it taken off them. Permanently.

These people need to be mind controlled themselves.

They need their minds read and made public.

Something needs to be done. But you are evil.

You are evil as well.

You don't believe. You haven't suffered.

Until the truth comes out you are all evil.

You are evil with them.

You chose to believe them over me.

I hate God now. I have given God 37 years to do something. That's totally long enough.

God is useless in the face of human suffering and death.

God does nothing.

This tech seems much greater than god if it can control my every move.

What gives them the lawful right to make me their slave.

They are exactly the same people before 9/11 and after 9/11.

Nothing changed. The evil was allowed to live.

Evil must be killed and punished and tortured.

Lay your life down for me.

I hate God. I hate the world. I hate life.

You are not innocent. Nobody is. Please help me stop being tortured by other humans. Believe what I say. Maybe not about God but at least about the songs and about being tortured.

Noboby even believes I am being tortured. It's all in my head.

Well you shall mourn then.


Darcy Lee
Leeda





Monday, April 13, 2015

Madonna Ghost Town



Madonna - Ghost Town.

Got this on repeat at the moment. I only really like the chorus. Because it's Madonna and because i'm playing it right now on loop with my built in YouTube LOOP button, because of those things i'm adding it to Music 2. There's not quite enough here to go for Music I think. I do like he chorus though.

Madonna.
Ghosts are cool. I had a dream a few days ago and a voice in the dream said "Ghost Touch Me" I dunno if it was my voice or someone else. I think it was someone else though. I got kinda spooked out after that. It got kind of frightening and I woke up. What happened after Ghost Touch Me kinda freaked me out and I was scared in dream but I woke up not scared.

It was kinda like I was in hell and there was movement towards freedom like bands being loosed.

I always get the scary stuff. Now to randomize stuff a bit.

And the Scripture For The Day:

1 John 4:18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

So I guess I'm not yet the possessor of perfect love and i'm being punished.

I fear lots sometimes.

There's much to be afraid of.

Being watched in your own home has moments.

There are people eating gravel. Been thinking about them. Also like meditating on celebrity or other famous or newsworthy deaths.

One death I recently stumbled on was the Ferrero Chocolate maker and Nutella maker Michele Ferrero who was 89. He invented Nutella and kinder surprise. He was worth 26 Billion.

I don't understand how you need to have so much wealth. Wouldn't it be better to feed people. There are plenty of poor people in the world.

Spend this wealth instead of locking it up and guarding it. Liquidize it. Keep enough to sustain yourself and spend the rest on the poor and needy. Alot of people can give out of their wealth who aren't. You can still live a high life. But you must consider the bottom. Without doing this you are truly missing the higher love.

The billionaires of the world don't need all that money.

I know i'm going to try and be frugal with my billions when I earn them.

I'm going to build a support network. Each Millionaire I create will be a pillar in my church temple.

I don't probably have long on this earth. Sad story. I could live another 30 years. But like everyone else i'm slowly heading towards death. I seem to be stuck at waiting for money.

While heading towards death it would be great to be set free by the truth. To not die. To end suffering and pain, death.

The bible predicts the end of Pain and Death. "LET ME STAND HERE".

Darcy Lee.


Tuesday, March 10, 2015

Children in Syria Picking Bread Pieces Up Off of The Floor.





Poverty on a Global Scale must be dealt with.

Children in Syria picking bread pieces up off of the floor.

Saw this and was sad. Don't really know what to say. They don't get any help. Aid doesn't reach them. There are so many in this situation as well. One of these days someone smart will say enough. The matrix tech could go a long way to helping these people. Perhaps their experience could be translated and understood on a higher level with the tech.

We absolutely need to feed people. The matrix tech will provide wealth for all people great and small. But it is mind control. These people deal with hunger I deal with mind control.

A lot of people live in absolute luxury. I believed when I was younger if I just had enough to keep me self sufficient I could have made a huge dent in the poverty of the world through ideas and thoughts.

I never made it to self sufficiency and picked up a couple of addictions on the way. I could of still succeeded with my addictions in the early years I thought but my light was definitely dampened. It would've been a matter of throwing off the chains of whatever was dragging me down.

Somewhat.

Now even if I was to become rich I would probably pick up more addictions. It would just be a matter of being around the the right person who tempts you. Because you've got the money you might indulge. I am aware of addiction and harm yet someone I feel could override my will to resist.

So not to be rich but to be self sufficient. Or to be rich and possibly burn out earlier suffer an early death because of drugs. But having the money meant you can do greater good.

I have way to many distractions in poverty that crowd my life for me to efficiently think. Also now my thinking is effectively crippled.

You think to small.

Video is 2 children from Syria eating bread
crumbs.
Truly my old age sucks. I may have conquered the world but I didn't do one bit to help children like in the video. I guess I have shared in their suffering. Believe it. My suffering was great. Just as great as this. Also it was for 10 years. I had to wait that long for relief. Everyday is a huge weight. Not like the luxury of a rich person.

If I was self sufficient now I could possibly find it within myself to aid people somehow. Still with ideas and thoughts . I have a huge wealth of suffering to draw from as experience. I have the desire. Now I lack the intelligence.

I guess so many people have tried what makes me any different, if I was rich, from a rich man currently trying to solve the issues we face. I don't think I would do any better.

I do desire strongly to be rich though. To have an abundance. To have my needs met. I desire everyones needs are met. But this is a long way from happening.

I would like to setup everyone in my life at the moment financially. Once this is done I would like to dedicate my mind to solving some of the issues that are a heavy burden to us.

I don't know if I could be of any effect at all unless I had some substantial money behind me and then it's not really me it's the money. My mind is just to crippled now.

Destruction. How I feel.
I guess I just want to say that we need to move more people into thinking positions. Positions where they are stable with the fewest possible day to day worries of life. It's the worries that get you. The little distractions that take away from your precious total sum of power that is needed to break past the barrier.

Get more people owning their own homes and living the dream.

I believe more people should can retire comfortably at 35 spend the rest of their life in philanthropy aiding the words problems.

The money is all pooled wrong. The rich have to much and the poor to little.

Like I said. If I had enough money in the right time frame I believe I could've created a fire that would've done a lot of damage to the evil that 's out there.

There must be other younger people than me who feel it in themselves to do something like this if they just have enough money before they get to old. I missed my window.

I think different now that I have suffered. Perhaps if one day I still make it if my phone call gets paid out and I can setup all my friend then because of my suffering I will indeed now be able to help.

Immense suffering exists in the world.
Where by if I never suffered then I wouldn't have the same urgency and couldn't offer nearly the same amount of help. Though I must say I did have a pretty strong desire to think but just needed that security and self sufficiency, I needed the money. I guess I was just naive to how easy it can happen, that you get hurt, and how bad it actually is in the world.

Young people need money and less worries. They are our brightest thinkers. I am basically a dead man now in thinking.

There are some simple things that can be done. Get money to people instead of letting the rich horde it all for themselves in banks and material items. The rich need to spend.

Also secrets need to be revealed. Secrets of the GOVTs of the world. I wait patiently for money from my phone call so I can think in peace. I will try and Remember these children as you should.

I've said enough.

Darcy Lee.

Monday, December 22, 2014

Elvis Presley - Blue Suede Shoes.



Elvis Presley - Blue Suede Shoes.

Found myself listening to this on 3rd play right now.  I looked it up for the line "It's a one for the money".  There's also a recent movie called that as well.

I'm thinking that I could add more music that I randomly access for one reason or another even if I don't really listen to it more than once. I still have to have a reason for adding it and i'll try and include that reason.  There have been a couple songs that I've forgotten now that I could have included because i looked them up for one reason or another.

Also another reason for giving this a listen is that my auntie, my Mums sister, is a big Elvis fan.

My Aunties kid, my first cousin, who I grew up with but haven't seen for years, the eldest of her kids, is getting married on either the 1st or 2nd of January 2015 and alot of the family are heading to Mt Ruapehu for the ceremony. I'm not going. Would cost heaps to have me stay there. The old saying: "IF I WAS A RICH MAN"

So yeah enjoy Elvis. He was a rich man. He's dead now. I think immortality would be a higher possession than all the riches there are at the moment in this world.

There is an effort to push for immortality but it needs more money and higher profile people. An end to all suffering is what the bible predicts and i'm happy to agree with it. But alas there is much evil in the world and we must take as many precautions as possible.

I could say that i've covered a fair bit of the human suffering that exists in my own body. Manboy have I suffered. No really. I have truly suffered for a very long time and right at the limit of human suffering. Suffering didn't make me strong. But I endured. But my suffering should have changed something. I wonder what my suffering has achieved for me. I say my suffering was so great that things can no longer stay the same or as they were. My suffering has altered the world. If you can share in the sufferings of Jesus Christ like the bible says then I have done that.

Failing that. Well my suffering was so great that I predict it will impact the world in a huge way. Thus far people only fail to interpret exactly how much I have suffered. I am told that in Africa they suffer more. I came under the power of the Government Executioners. They tortured me with modern technology. Far greater than any natural suffering I endured. It was inflicted upon me. There isn't a mark on my body to show my suffering. As far as you are aware I am normal. I have never suffered. People can't recognise great suffering in others if they have never suffered themselves. The world by my suffering that took place is now different. It can never happen again.

Really there needs to be a huge push for the end of suffering and a huge push for immortality. Right out in the open. With everyone taking part. There are jobs for everyone, they just haven't been named.

I should have a job really. I can use a computer better than alot of people. But saying that any literate teenager would have the same skills that I have now adays and better as they do it all with a cell phone and I barely use my cell phone at all.

Scripture for the day:

Proverbs 27:12  A prudent person foresees danger and takes precautions. The simpleton goes blindly on and suffers the consequences.

There is plenty of evil in the world in the form of people.

Recognise my suffering.

Donate for my house and car and lighter lifestyle. When I have my own house then my suffering has been recognised in part. I repeat. You must recognise my suffering. There is heaps to be learned by it. Don't let my suffering be wasted on you. I have truly suffered. I say things.

I have earned a house of my own through blood. Yet I still don't have one. My suffering was great. I now need a house please. I through suffering have changed the world. But this is not recognised either. The world will be a better place, that I have existed and suffered.

I have changed the world. Through suffering.

For this change I ask for my own house not much else. Respect.


Leeda
Darcy Lee


Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Was Jesus Resurrected and How to Prove it.

On another topic....   Just consider such an impossibility of proving that Jesus was or wasn't resurrected.  I thought such a thought as to prove the existence of Jesus.  If he was resurrected then he's awesome.  But there is no proof.  But there are still so called believers.  But they most of them, the believers are without proof, going on just faith and belief is not good enough. It's impossible to prove.  Jesus is either hiding or dead.  If he's hiding then he don't want to be found easily.  If he's dead then there's still no proof of that either so people keep believing.

It's an impossibility.

In your opinion what is the best way of solving the questions such as Jesus, God and other religions. Like they can't all be right can they?

The bible says the earth will be filled with the knowledge of the Glory of the Lord as the waters cover the sea.

So I wonder what God is waiting for.  I'm kinda waiting on God.  I expect i'm going to die before I see God.  I would like to see God if he's real.  A mansion in heaven and eternity to live would be awesome.

I want to be the one to prove or disprove God but I think my time has passed i'm old as.  I'm an ancient.

Really it's not up to me to prove God.  It should be up to God.  But i'll be glad to help ya aye God.

But I guess it can be proven with belief and not fact that Jesus didn't get resurrected and God isn't real.  We shall know the truth.  So what is the truth about this.  Most argue now that God isn't real.  I see their point.  But I grew up in the bible.  I like it.

I'm kinda ashamed of Jesus though.  Am I?  I can't back him 100%.  All I can say is that he probably suffered to the extreme if he was crucified.  So I can share in his sufferings.  I have suffered to.

So the question remains.  Was Jesus resurrected.  IS GOD REAL. I think it's beyond me the simple who tends to believe in a God and Jesus even though they do nothing.

Suffering says God isn't real?  There's plenty of suffering going round. God is needed. More than he knows I guess. I can't figure.  I can't figure if God is real or not.  I tend to go with the crowd who says he isn't real.

Leeda
Darcy Lee

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Nike Glow Shoes.

Found this picture on tumbler.  Nike Glow Shoes.  Now if they were solar powered and u could turn them on and off with your mind.

So matrix tech.  The future.  It exists right now. This Journal Blog represents that i was one of the first civilians to be shown this tech.  I haven't seen that much but it's definitely used on me to farm my thoughts and they cause quite alot of pain.

But no one believes this.  Now if it was good, this tech, the matrix virtual reality tech then why not just tell people about it.  Why is it kept secret from the everyone.  It's kept secret so that people can be farmed.  It's kept secret because it can control people.  It's kept secret because it has existed for so long now.  It must be used on quite a few different people by now.  People they see as scum.  Like myself.  This is in relative comparison to themselves of course.

It could be that they just enjoy the pain and suffering and misery that they put so greatly into my body and life.  Everybody's mind is wide open for the government to record and use on a computer database.  They just rip your thoughts.  They listen in on your thinking.

But this is to unbelievable.  The human body can't be this easily hacked.  I tell you they have been doing this since the early 80's.  At least.  Most likely way way earlier.

Brain Computer Interface.  This tech is where it's at.  Your mind on a computer.  Your thoughts recorded.  A picture H.U.D in you head.  It's a new type of warfare.  It's able to be used because it's secret.  If it wasn't secret tech then people could report it and be believed finally with out being written off as crazy.  They can make you crazy.  They can cause you unbelievable pain.  The govt.  It brings them pleasure.  Some of them.

And you the reader don't yet believe me.  It's 2014.  They have been working on this technology for a long time 24 hours 7 days a week.  They have succeeded.  The MATRIX exists.

You have been warned.  It's warfare..... they commit acts of war against the sovereignty of people.

They violate people.  Nobody is immune.

If the tech it's so good, why is it secret.  For so long,  Because it's being used against us.

Allow yourself to think mind control of the worst kind.  Nobody will believe you.  Nobody believes me.  But this happens every day to many people.  They can see what you see.


Darcy Lee
Leeda


Thursday, August 7, 2014

Hey Joe Jimi Hendrix.



Jimi Hendrix - Hey Joe.

It's pretty late here.  It's like 15 minutes past 3amm in the morning as I write this first sentence.  I came to this version of Hey Joe by Jime Hendrix Live by thinking on the word Angel which can also be pronounced  as Age Ole or also I was saying it as Hey Joe.  So Angel = Age Ole = Hey Joe.  I didn't like HEY JOE when I first looked it up again a little while ago.  Perhaps when I was listening to A11 Along The Watch Tower.  But I remember liking hey Joe as a teenager.  I'm including hey Joe because i've given it a few plays now and also this paragraph has clues as to why i'm adding it.

What have I been doing?  Well playing more WOW.  I'm levelling a shaman to 60 and it's going to be my boost toon.  I was going to boost a 60 priest that I specially levelled but i'll probably just hand level him unless I become rich and suddenly get heaps of money enough to COUGH COUGH buy a level 90 or two. It sucks how you can buy level 90's now.  It makes it a rich mans game.  Guess it means if you pay $65 for each level 90 that my account is worth somewhere round $260 dollars for say the cost of four 90s that I have.  But this $260 dollars is nothing in comparison to the actual amount of hours I have invested in some of my characters.  It works out at about one dollar per 24 hours played sitting in chair.

I'm a terrible World of Warcraft Player.  I have no smarts.  Anywho.

Battlesheep was a domain I checked out but it's gone to some Portugal gaming company.  I check out domain names regularly and write down good ones I think are will be ok.  Most are stupid but who knows maybe one day i'll think of a good one.

I actually stumped Google a little while ago.  I searched for the word Militourance.  Google had absolutely no results what so ever for this word.  It's a word I invented myself and if it ain't in Google then it probably hasn't been thought of yet.  What do you think it means, what's the definition of the word?  It's quite hard to stump Google.  Also the word Miltourance stumps google.

I actually have hurt my back.  About three days ago I felt something kind twinge or snap or move in my lower back and it's been hurting ever since.  The first night was the worst I couldn't even move hardly it was very painful to move anyway.

Leave you with this.  According to the bible oneday there will be no pain no tears no mourning or the last enemy, no DEATH.  This means that we are still primitive and we must therefore think and take action perhaps fight hard to arrive at a place such as this.

With thought and truth it can be done much faster than we think possible perhaps.

I want to see a place like this where everyone is safe.  It would be nice to know GOD if he was real.  Like to prove that GOD was real or not would solve heaps of problems.  It would answer alot of questions for so many people.  Many many people follow religion and GOD and intertwine it with there very nature and being.  But this seems to much of a challenge to solve the answer of IS THERE A GOD?

Ok i'm going to bed now.




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Friday, August 9, 2013

Get Up Stand Up, Stand Up For Your Rights.



Bob Marley Live Get Up Stand Up.

Have like listened to this twice but think that it suits this website.

Get Up, Stand Up, Stand Up For Your Rights.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Still Poor.

I got nothing to write about though i'm being tortured alot lately. The scary abusive torture. The most horrible torture you can imagine. The most cruelest suffering you can fathom. The torture of having no money. The pain. The agony. The terror. The fear.

Please help end my torture now today. Donate to me.